Presence is just more than being there

I'm trying as much as possible in taking care of my health. One of my main priorities for now. Dealing with rotating shifts, gonna affect as much as possible. Especially when it comes to irrelevant hours of sleep.Drink tons of plain water, absorb as much vitamins as I can. I don't want ended up having demoralized figure like last JAN 2011 till AUG 2011. I looked more tired, weak couldn't barely face the world, couldn't even face my friends/students yet alone my own time. They have seen me in that state and I was hoping/praying I have a good job opportunity. Alhamdulillah.. God answers my prayer. Week in week out, my horrendous activities was just ..................

I kept thinking when this activities will end?

Finally I managed to face that toughest period. (:

Dear Mum,

I hope you don't remind me again about what I've been through for the past 16 years. I've been through alot but I never complained at home to you/anyone about what I've faced during my 16 years. But you could sense my agony without looking/observing. Thank You for being understanding Mother. Don't worry about what I've been through,

I've done it，

I've persevered through,

I've walked through that rough patches,

I will never back down because I dare to fight that emotion

The family broke into pieces but we ended up being independent. Look what we have built from scratches. Thanks to your prayers. Deeply appreciated what you have sacrificed! loves... (':